cry baby cry

As the youngest member amongst the family, I never grow up. Meaning to say, I'm still a baby in my family. Everyone love me and I received the most protection from every member. In this circumstance, I become worse..

The point I wanna emphasize is I love to cry . Cry like a baby . I cry cry cried .
Especially when I got messed up with my loves one - my family and dearly friends .
I got upset with a person easily too, when he/she said some little tiny things with no intention but which will hurt me.

I cry so easily . My tear duct are so.. active .  Is that suppose to be a good thing ?


No one can stand my personality . I know that and I admit it too its hard for me to change, I have live my life so long with this character in me .

ah I feel so emotional now. I used to cut myself whenever I argued with my mom . We have gaps, I feel so bad about myself when I see people saying I Love you to their parents cause.. I didn't say it, not even once, not before .

   This was kinda long ago and I don't remember the reason why I cried . 

As I said I cry a lot .

Cry out loud .

hot sex and cold wine

sexy topic eh ?  i have nothing to do with that . It's from a song .

I feel kinda relief these few days cause I'm done with one of my clever ( it's not pleasant to refer it as stupid hehe ) homework . Its was so-called 'important' because we're exhibit it but I think no one is gonna see it though . Sadness .

However good things don't last . The war is gonna start again tomorrow & onwards . Its gonna be a super boring post so I decided to post some photos but I'm sure its gonna be worse .

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and.... this is the shit I'm talking about ! 

My hair was terrifying wrong..

oh you think I'm fat  ? Hehe you should know everything happens for a reason ..

SEE's candies !

another fatty pictures I took .. at..

That's the ... hotel . BLAH the school toilet .

I like this picture. Took with my iPhone 512 hehe

Paper bag from Body shop. I love their products. ( Jerling Kong says she gonna 

buy more a lot of stuffs when I go back, thank you )

New products from MAC ! They looked kinda great though . ( Thanks again

Jerling Kong, you're so good to me )

Currently in love with these .

Vivienne Westwood Melissa wings

which remind me of these 

Jeremy Scott Wings

If I own these, I'll be the world coolest person.

My coolest friend - Flying Panda wearing the Jeremy Scott white wings

 Hehe I think its cute ! I bought it from 7-11 just now it comes with a chupa chups ( I don't

know how to spell ) lollipop . Candies are not for me though !

I think I gonna end here . 

uh uh

I always have no time to blog here in Taiwan because the amount of homework is more than your hair ! I'm actually drawing some shit now but my brain juice is kinda dry at the moment so uhmm, it means its time to blog ! There's a post I wrote few days ago like so bloody long but I deleted it eventually cause it was too emotional haha I write lame emo post like an emokid whenever I feel lonely and staying awake late just to do shits . ( especially when people are snoring and farting in their lalaland but I'm still here rubbing my tired eyes )

Time elapsed so fast, my eye bags became so black and my chocolates got lesser and lesser day by day . ( The whole sentence sounds so incoherent but that's how I talk hehehe ) I have class at 10 tomorrow but I decided to go at 12 haha Nah I'm playing, I ain't skipping class I'm a docile child who obey rules all the time.

Oh yeah, I just realized I didn't poo tonight. I pooooped this morning and whoa it feel so good. hehe

And this stupid automatic language thingy drives me nut, whenever I type an 'US English' word, the red ziggy zag line appear . I have to type realized instead of realised . Organize instead organise. Duh ~

There is so many drawing need to be done ! Oh my and my bed is like after war so I have to clear every shit before I can go to sleep . Hmmpf ~ Jerling Kong would clean for me . She's a good sister . ( I lie often )

aHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ~

bye .

I''m so tired . I woke up at 8 today and finish class at 8 . I think I'm a superwoman hehe


bye ~

yay & ew

YAYs :

- I got Godiva chocolate and it taste real good ! 

- There's like 2873984793 people saying I got thinner and my skin got betteeeer ! That's the best compliment 

  ever to me. They must be wanting something. tsk tsk tsk, bad-hearted people. 

- I fell in love in ' Grenade ' by Bruno Mars. Take a bullet straight through my brain ~~~~

- I got to use my new huge Aussino towel and it's RED ! 

EWs :

- SOME BITCH STOLE MY SHIRT ! She should be crashed by a car.

- There's a lot of guys added me on facebook and all of them looked like pervert. So I ignore them all.

- I was on the plane for 3 hours, and was smelling 3 hours of farts.

- I think my boobs got smaller too !

- blah I'm sad ! Cause my boobs got smaller :/

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uh. I accidentally found these when I was looking for my missing folders.

I was so.. you name it.

Hehe There's people saying I'm pretty during that that time. HAHAHHA blind peeeeps

Form 1 ( age 13 )

My super ugly but nice dog and me when I was like..14 ? ( Form  2)

I never knew I looked like this. ew ( Form 2, age 14)

Whoa SO PRETTY, pretty ugly . hehe when I was 14 ( Form 2 )

uh... Nokia. aha, When I was 15 ( Form 3 )

then uh.. i chopped off my hair.. I thought its nice :( ( Form 3 )

MY FACE WAS SO HILARIOUS ! ( Form 4, age 16 )

Darwin basketball player Marcus Ch'ng 

Oh my hair ! Age 16, looked different from previous picture eh ?

This is thinner though but ew my hair haha  ( Form 4 )

I got a little prettier, I'm so touched =') ( Form 4, age 16)

I can't understand I got ugly again ! ( Form 4, age 16 )

My head is so big, that means I have big brains . ( Form 5, age 16 )

I got so thin because I got sick ! but my skin color was like.. roasted. ( Form 5, age 16 )

I got more retarded each and everyday but I got happier hahaha This glasses was like 80 cents HAHAHA

Last day of High school . ( Form 5, age 16, sounds like i never grow )

age 17, Prom night ~

AGE 18. SIGH

I'm finally blonde !

As some of you already know that I crave to be as sexy as blonde and want to become blonde so much. I have  no courage to bleach my hair at first but then I determine to do it at last. Actually I'm not only went blonde, I have my boobs done and of course LIPO SUCTION done. I turned into a totally different person. I got sexy tanned from uh..hm.... some private tanning centre and bought some new outfits. This is the new me.

HAHAHA

I don't know who the hell is this girl before my face. Haha She is not that hot though I liquify the size of the boobs nyeeeh ` I love the tanned skin color !

It's actually gross ! I don't think I looked nice in blond but.. sigh .. I really think blondes are sexy haha

This is the original photo

( Zoo @ Kota Kinabalu and I was making friends with the Zebras )

Happy Valentines !

Great song for ya all :D


For all those times you stood by me 
For all the truth that you made me see 
For all the joy you brought to my life 
For all the wrong that you made right 
For every dream you made come true 
For all the love I found in you 
I'll be forever thankful baby 
You're the one who held me up 
Never let me fall 
You're the one who saw me through through it all 


You were my strength when I was weak 
You were my voice when I couldn't speak 
You were my eyes when I couldn't see 
You saw the best there was in me 
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach 
You gave me faith 'coz you believed 
I'm everything I am 
Because you loved me 


You gave me wings and made me fly 
You touched my hand I could touch the sky 
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me 
You said no star was out of reach 
You stood by me and I stood tall 
I had your love I had it all 
I'm grateful for each day you gave me 
Maybe I don't know that much 
But I know this much is true 
I was blessed because I was loved by you 


You were my strength when I was weak 
You were my voice when I couldn't speak 
You were my eyes when I couldn't see 
You saw the best there was in me 
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach 
You gave me faith 'coz you believed 
I'm everything I am 
Because you loved me 


You were always there for me 
The tender wind that carried me 
A light in the dark shining your love into my life 
You've been my inspiration 
Through the lies you were the truth 
My world is a better place because of you 


You were my strength when I was weak 
You were my voice when I couldn't speak 
You were my eyes when I couldn't see 
You saw the best there was in me 
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach 
You gave me faith 'coz you believed 
I'm everything I am 
Because you loved me 


I'm everything I am 
Because you loved me 

I think he is cute ! haha